Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Title: Clot
okay finally i went to the doctor cause i cant bear the pain in my head.
its a real extreme headache ive ever suffered since i had a cursed fall on ginza staircase
about 2 weeks ago.
it wasnt nice to hear of the result after the x-ray.
theres a blood clot on my left side of the brain.
the swollen part had blocked the flow of blood
and it dried. so theres little blood flowing through
the swollen area.
...
it was rather shocking.i was stunned by the news.
i thought it was another normal headache ...
i might / might not recover as told by dr.lee
even if a surgery is done,
the risk is high.
ive talked to my parents.
no surgery no anything done inside me.
just let me be what i am and let fate play its part.
it all depends on time.
who knows i migh recover
who knows if it really is blocked then i might be a vegetable
or eventually forgot everything everyone i ever knew or even
i might be a real retard..
touch wood.okay no joke.im dead serious.
maybe only
perhaps its a punishment for all the sins ive made.
i don't wanna forget all my friends and even my family members.
oh well,since it already happened .
i might as well cherish the present and future
for who knows tomorrow i might forget it all.
who says i always look on my life negatively?
deep inside, im always positive .
i just cant bear it thats all .
im just weak .
i may look normal but my head is killing me.
all i can do is to bring a smile (:
To those who concern about my being,
im really grateful to have frens like you.
Pray for shall i will be back healthy and strong again
Thats the wish i will make for my belated birthday.
Coz i nvr believe in wishes.
Thank you my pals.
Ariel
