Thursday, December 28, 2006
I figure it out finally,
what has been bugging me for quite awhile.
the poem which i used to remember in the past.
Fortunately, i manage to reminiscence the poem full.
It does lighten up my days of darkness in the past.
Forever encouraging me to move on forward till i drop.
I managed to figure out my problems after doing some soul searching on myself.
Im a person who cant make DECISIONS.
Fear of decisions that craves the path of my life in the near future.
I totally shoot myself out of the picture when making a decision,
be it choiced or compulsary.
I dont even know what i want
What i need.
All this while ive been toying myself to luxury of love , time and others.
Ive been faking myself.
I just cant be myself when coming to a complete decision.
I cant just apologize to anyone i hurt before.
I must salvage the fake roles to amend my condemned behavior.
I just realise that by the time now,
My life could be so enriching .
Provided i can make a decision for a stubborn 17 year old self.
Theres an old saying:
For want of a nail,
the horseshoe was lost.
For want of a horseshoe,
the steed was lost.
For want of a steed,
the message was not delivered,
For want of the undelivered message,
the war is lost.
Poem by Anonymous
Desired by lust and greed,
I now forever guilty
For my actions and plead.
Only time is left within me,
To perish the dark omen.
Hope God is with my soul.
Amen. (amin)
The only shining faith that i can hold.
Poem by Ariel .
