Meet Ariel (:

2007-01-12T14:02:00.000-08:00

Title: aiya another random ok? is that okay for you? :P

GUYS! GUYS!
oh ya i mean my fellas in SH.
oi oi oi poloi
i tink i found out another meaning of d.e.a.d lar konex.
you guys just splurted out rubbish and nonsense sia bout the word haha.
eventually i managed to make out something or at least a kid would know about the word.
one more time wah-shiok-ga ! is that ,
d.e.a.d =
Death . Engulfs . Another . Day (:
can can agree agree?
pantat korang lar chibei.
ok lar cut that topic out i damn lazy to talk bout it hah.

just that today been practising covered songs on accoustic guitars under the damn nose-wheezing weather.perfect day to smoke a carton eh? haha sial .
my wrist is like gonna pop out anytime due to the gruelling 6..7 hrs of guitar
and my fingers are full of blisters and slight cuts . (im damn violent thats why (: )
but still i guess im quite a weak guitarist.
imma fast learner but i hate STRUMMING .
i hate it . totally.
i know struming is a must but i just couldnt get a beat or rhythm out of it.
aiya.. damn sad sia WAH SHIOK GA ONE MORE TIME i damn sad ok T_T ....
nvm lar practice makes perfect rite?
ok bullshit ok kidding ok bullshit i tink so aiya wtf.
my fault i couldnt strum well i indeed spoilt the whole fucking song $%!#%@ .

well today kinda sux.
very cold and the breeze is freezing my balls.
lack of cigarette to keep me warm ( nie anak memang degil )
Shah lost his wrist stud belt or something and hes so sad.
Rizal forever laugh like chimpanzee but hes a good guitarist tetek.
Fahd sings like a merpati but i guess todays its dead perhaps due to lack of wathing porn.
Alexander endlessly lepak at home and myspacing and chatiing and fucking his cat and this and that. ( you better get chp 4 right ..)
and where the f is wan kecik?
so hard to contact him.

and me.
i guess i just leave it for another day.
booo~
i forgot im a loser anyway hah.
and good news sia.
im 0.98kg more hahahaa!
fuck it its like no big difference...
sad huh. huh . huh . huh . huh .

i end what i start (:

2007-01-03T13:12:00.000-08:00

Title:Random

Same old weekdays.
so bored like fuck.
Logging in my chair like 24hours of non stop action of games and musix.
Until i fell upon hearing this great song from X-Japan which was introduced by Marcus.

Sometimes,
I just feel like it ya know.

My love towards a great band and a respectable glorious singer that has passed away.
With memories of late Hide, a member from a band x-japan,
his death crushed upon many hearts and to those listened to his songs.
Ive translated the song "Crucify my love"
with a help from a programme from japanese to english.
its really nice to hear ya know.
If anyone ever wanna listen to this song,
contact me and i send this song to ya.

Crucify My Love.

"Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"

Crucify my love
If it should be that way
Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say good-bye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever
Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away, and I will know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry

Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be that way

'Til the loneliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I know I can clear clouds away
Oh is it a crime to love
Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries I'll say good-bye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be that way.."

Once a great guitarist and vocalist,

Now only left with memories.

Hide lives forever.

2006-12-28T13:23:00.000-08:00

I figure it out finally,
what has been bugging me for quite awhile.
the poem which i used to remember in the past.
Fortunately, i manage to reminiscence the poem full.
It does lighten up my days of darkness in the past.
Forever encouraging me to move on forward till i drop.
I managed to figure out my problems after doing some soul searching on myself.
Im a person who cant make DECISIONS.
Fear of decisions that craves the path of my life in the near future.
I totally shoot myself out of the picture when making a decision,
be it choiced or compulsary.

I dont even know what i want
What i need.
All this while ive been toying myself to luxury of love , time and others.
Ive been faking myself.
I just cant be myself when coming to a complete decision.

I cant just apologize to anyone i hurt before.
I must salvage the fake roles to amend my condemned behavior.
I just realise that by the time now,
My life could be so enriching .
Provided i can make a decision for a stubborn 17 year old self.

Theres an old saying:
For want of a nail,
the horseshoe was lost.
For want of a horseshoe,
the steed was lost.
For want of a steed,
the message was not delivered,
For want of the undelivered message,
the war is lost.

Poem by Anonymous

Desired by lust and greed,
I now forever guilty
For my actions and plead.
Only time is left within me,
To perish the dark omen.
Hope God is with my soul.
Amen. (amin)
The only shining faith that i can hold.

Poem by Ariel .

2006-12-22T10:30:00.000-08:00

Title: Gig at Gashaus.

yo wassupos weirdos anyone reading my blog yupx (:

went to gashaus watching my friends band perform.okaylar not bad lar at least can perform right at the stage.like cool gitu fugs (: .

So Silence of Objection,you guys rox.

so to Leo , MeI Ling , Juthamat and that vocal.

cheers yupx (:

only 1 picture taken cause its quite dark and hard for me to take photos in my phone T_T .

the part where they mosh really hard . Fun sia .

Poor Arch gotta get new jeans.Mosh until pants torn like that. Sial ar.
haha funny sia he mosh.sidekick bicycle kick,hammer headbang sumer ar. mcm gerek ar mosh ngan nie Arch. My favourite brother and best friend always ya. Dun worry i help you knit that pants up okay? hehe (:

I fear God than Death .

2006-12-16T10:52:00.000-08:00

Title:Family Day Out.

Finally i can eat together as a family.Its my parents 30th wedding anniversary and so my sis book a table for 5 excluding my elder brother coz hes fucking lazy to come along.So,my dad mummy sis and bro in law was like one hell of a ghost eating various food ranging from western to chinese to indian to malay foods.Sial ar i tell you the food was damn superb but pricey too.
its just like Seoul Garden but better but expensive and the price was like overwhelmingly $170++ per head?? Can lar all thx to my kakaks BIG BANG CHRISTMAS BONUS from her sucky boss lor.Okay thx kakak i owe you one treat cause you know lar i damn skinny lor.Can stuff myself inside toilet bowl just like wat Xiaoling said. (basket!)
Srry guys i aint have the pic of the restaurant inside Grand Hyatt hotel at town.
I dun wanna make anyone here drooling off their computer tables,mouse,etc.

And after that i head off to town ALONE.It was superbly like going to war.Humanoids like ants scattered round shopping malls and nearby streets.KIWAK hot and stuffy siol pantat.But thankfully got alot of sweet chix to admire about walking around sweet-heaven smiling (: .
Christmas is coming wadya expect.Ppl are rushing to buy stuffs for their kids or friends or wadever. Below are some of the pics i took .

Got performance sia by some mat salleh crews.Very kewl lors.Confirm christmas dance.
so wheres SANTA bitch? i want my wishlist to be blessed sia musibot. okay joke i dun celebrate christmas for goodness sake.Tak tau malu nyer budak -_-''

Another mat salleh trying to act like clown .

The singers goes like "Jesus, jesus.....you're only one.." i was standing there like wtf?okay lar christmas coming so you can shout Jesus so loud and countless times. HEY im not being rascist over here but they are just being sarcastic.Yall dun have to shout that Jesus so many times yea.I saw many chinese indian bangladesh being so irritated but most of em all were like jumping like freaks hearing that name. okay wadever. GET OUTTA THERE BEFORE I MOSH THE FUCK OUT OF YOU MORONS. Ookay kidding. im heavily outnumbered (: . But the funny part really arrived when i saw a group of Bangladesh construction workers jumping for fuck watching the so called show? TGI ke per? Funny sia.huhur.hoho.HAHAHAHHAHA! go celebrate "wale wale " lar siak instead ya dumb fugs. If this is a gig,im sure to have my madness there 9:

The ONLY thing i like on CHRISTMAS.Just outside Paragon.i loike christmas tress.Those stars are so cute like can eat sia.The tree make log cake.Anyone? (:

And then,head off to home after those madness of squeezing , shoveling , crawling off from those retarded bizarre crowds of zombies. Joking lar.

SO MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL CHRISTIANS YA!
AND MY FRIENDS
AND MY FAMILY (:

AND FINALLY TO ALL THOSE TAKING THEIR N LVL RESULTS ON MONDAY.

WISHING YALL ALL THE BEST IN CARVING THE PATH OF YALL LIFE YUPX (:

2006-12-07T08:44:00.000-08:00

Title:

Finally able to hog on this shit bloggo.
As usual , my life is the same .
Get a life , get a cig , get a job.
Oh haha hohahehaho.
tired lar.

Band meeting today.
busting in jam sessions on saturday.
Jamming some songs then maybe perhaps occasionally off to town anywherable we can go.
Thats what we plan.
And since evryone is sorta free,
then its confirmed titos.

My health.
Im good babe.
Positive babe.
I luvin it babe.
i wana go to hell babe.
okay kidding. :D

So,

HOW YAL HOLS COMING YO?
to those who work, no offence but work hard.
afterall its just time that you are burning.
Burning earning spending that is later yo.
hahx.
so yall have fun.

up 2 date later yall.
have fun fuckers.

2006-11-12T09:05:00.000-08:00

Title : Raye Yelar..

raye sux...visited only 2 homes.
in the end hanis tag us to join in a concert at hotel Le Meridien.
Super gerek . :D

Onl 5 of us . Ariel , Apin , Adah , Rain , Nanis and Shy fiz who won the cloth iron eventually in a lucky draw and nanis too . I bet ur mum would be glad yea :D haha siak attitude of mine. XD

Host stating to yell out craps.Drove me to sleep eventually.FORMAL DINNER :D

SMILE APIN AND ADAH! HAPPY COUPLES :D

RAIN AND NANIS. FISHY BEGOKS COUPLE :D

WTF? ur laughter fills the whole room with the echo of ur voice . x_x

No wonder the idiot above is laughing.Snapshot of me and Fiz.Cant help it the choc cate was damnnnnnnnnn goood! and the food ... fuyhyooo heaven :)))))))))) until the fork is still stuck in my mouth yupx :D THX HOR NANIS I CAN GROWWW FAT!!!!

Out of sudden TB CAME. Gosh AUNTIES AND GIRLS GO CRAZY! see gay men taking pix of TB . huahuaha dammit wats the matter wif me . XD But really they went wild in a formal dinner hauhauhua . They even gave TB flowers that is meant for the decoration on the table . wtf not sincered at all cursed shameful aunties.Marah nanti si orang tue sebelah korang tu . Cemburu haha!

okay time to head home . cik abg can sleep in the bus till morning eh wif the kain samping as blanket . lullaby baby go to hell ... . .

And last but not least, this adorable and super cute little kiddo cousin of mine.

Curiosity kills . "GIMME UR PHONE DAMMIT ! I WANT I WANT!! " :D

cilik pulak si kecik ni pose. usually ppl take photo of him he would wail . But i guess he loves me . :D AWWW love you too little kiddo . Just dun grow up end up like me okays ?

okay thats it fer today . i love to see you smile :D

2006-11-10T12:25:00.000-08:00

Title: POOLHOLIC.

ok pool start. HAVENT ENTER THE SALOON LOL!

"woah that guy damn good sia (drooling) "

I feel like im watching TV instead x_x"

Bunch of smokerholics . . Daud muker maintain pls eh .

i really cant say im good though . But i won them alot of times until they go garok kepale (scratch head) . Hehe . Tyconess okay im good dah! ah pui ar . I lousy shit okay . Even a primary school kid can break the set and make all the ball inside the pool table . Every time i break sure the white ball go inside first. (i suspect they insert magnet in the ball and the holes :D) But wadever , stress stress play pool . Aiya i still stress lor . Over friends lar this shit lar so many problems . You think fun ar accusing ppl over wrong shit ? fucker . Justice will play its role dun wrry . Act terror konon later find out im not the one in wrong i will be burning ur ass hair tell you . But aniway had a fun time wif em b4 heading on home . Psycho nuts .

And my hair is growing long wavy and curly weeee!

But i going NS mah after O lvl results . Botak back... AIYO T_T ....

okay have fun yalls.

2006-11-09T06:58:00.000-08:00

Title : A CAT DAY :D

A kitten :)

Found em :)

" Hello " :)

Aww..its asleep (:

zzz haha can go crazy playing wif kittens.

shit its awake. XD

AWW SHIT UR CURSED KITTEN!

of course i didnt flung em.

I loike!!

hanging around wif these bunch..

fountain kids.

a total was like 30+ can squeeze in this ftn.

counted if full strength haha.

I regret not joining tanglin though (:

hehs its really fun being wif them . My rotting days are spent here . At least i didnt rot to death.
I was revived here (:
Talk shits and bullcraps all day night long.
This group i will treasure them the most. (:

okay no more cat day liao can sleep x_x

2006-11-02T07:57:00.000-08:00

Title: IF ARENT CONCERN AND NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS,
DO NOT READ THIS POST COZ IT CONTAINS EXPLICIT AND GORE CONTENTS.
DUN SAY I NEVER WARNED.

sigh.
it is vicious and bastard of me to post this entry.
I really apologize.
Really.

look below.

Do you bleed this much?

... If you think this is ink,think again

Nose bleed. Aint a good sign.

i was having a bad flu and punishing coughs.not until in the middle of the night i suffered a nightmarish nosebleed.Blood flowed and spurt like water from pipe as i tried to clear my blocked nose.Unfortunately,i lost a lot of blood ( as shown in the pix ) and im srry to post this really.it really is nightmarish and i wonder if it ever has happen to anyone i know before.This is not the first time, t occurs to me quite a lot of time at night. So here i am sharing about my ill condition.

It really aint a good sign.This means im not recovering from my fall.My headache have grown so intense i can just like collapse at any moment.How things could grew so unfortunate and painful to me.I just cant take it you know.People assumed me so happy and cheerful ,taking life aback and enjoying,but im not seriously.Deep inside i suffered from all this damage that has been done and i managed to endure all of them.Ive suffered nosebleeds for a few nights within a month.My bed stained with blood when i woke up.Its not a nice sight to start my morning.Ive been so upset and depressed about this.

True enough,Dr Lee was damn true about what he said last time.The fall could cause side effects such as headaches , nose bleeds , sudden unconscious and wadever else that bother my mind in which i forgot.

Although of my ill conditions , i manage to face life with utmost cheerfulness. I never look even a single glance at the past.I only hope for the present and future for they seem to be my only memory. Seriously speaking,how many of my you would able to endure this pain if you were in my shoes if you keep telling me "you damn weak sia,everytime sick" or in any way or another.

Im not sick.

Im ill .

And how many of you around me have ever bleed this much for countless nights?

I've made a nightmare for myself.

Its quite sad being me.

I pray that as time passes by, i would heal.

I will cherish any moments i have. :D

2006-10-26T08:26:00.000-07:00

Title: Tanglin Rockstar

holy holy friggin superba wooootastic at Tanglin.
I tell you that their school is 10 times better than our school.
yes i bet my life on that.
SOUND SYSTEM JEK OKAYS.
muahhaa.

their rockstar was damn superb.(sounds gig to me (: )
talents varies from bands,dance and lotsa crazy stuffs.
AND
the most fantarstic is that MOSHA!!!
woohoo!
SOG performed lor.
And u know wat that means lar.
they perform we mosh (:
mosh mosh mosh mosh.
kick ppl backside.

and special guest appearance
West Grand Boulevard featuring Daphnne as main vocalist.
damn crazy.really crazy.
really fun.
super kecohrable.
i can go nuts at there.

if only the tchers in KRSS is just like TANGLIN,
i bet i would mosh mr koh (:
break his leg aiya choppa wooo!
and sujeetha too. chao taa armpit. eeeei!
and the tchers at there mosh too.
i bet with my life they really mosh.HARD as those students.
okaylar thx to Arch,Tupai,Wan Superman and myself for being firestarters for moshing.
Ex-kent ridgean kecoh in other ppl school?
damn whicked lar pantat.
huahuahau shut up.

And no injuries . power .

thats yupx for today yupx .

2006-10-14T23:40:00.000-07:00

5/2 5/1 assholics class (:
Another Sunday.

Another bright and hazy sunday.
Dun feel like going out today.
Its soo damn tiring and exhausting after Friday.
Another chaotic friday.
The 13th .
yes shiok.

On friday itself got this shit gong down.
A graduation ceremony at school.
Wore a tie and looked really like a weird nerd.
fcuk shut up.

Oh hell gotta get my ass down the stage to receive my report book and a momento
which is like a cd rom. WTF?
I want chocolates you bastards.
okay joking.
i really appreciate all the tchers effort to brought me up to what i am now
standing tall and being able decide what i wanna do in the future.

I owe yall a great amount of gratitude .

Farewell soon.
And my friends too.

Then not long after the grad ceremony,i attended a gig at gashaus
which my friends band gonna perform.

Seriously speaking,
its crazy and hectic out there.
Some of the songs were made advantage to mosh.
And yes mosh
IN MOSH WE TRUST.
The slower songs,we ate popcorns and criticise.
Hahaa.

Really its a real fun to get into the moshpit.
It feels like "who the fuck push,shovel and whack me $#!@#$! ??"
the next thing you know you would be down on the ground.
Well thats how it is.

Bleed . Battered . Bruised
the 3B in mosh.
If none of the B reflects you during mosh,
i prefer you wear a skirt and yell like a dickhead.
No offense but girls do mosh.
And they are hard too.

Saturday.
sleep till 4.
woke up got a note from my mum.
to break outside.
cause shes not cooking.

definitely i went to meet my friends.
thats my usual routines anyway since im so blur and stm.
next thing i know i cant fucking remember wad happened on the past days.
but by looking at the bruises.
i can recall wat happened.
i was involved in a mosh.
Ouch it hurts everywhere but fun.

after break,
went to meet SOG members at WCP.
ok shiok we spent the night playing guitar , sing the song we used to sing .
And not forgetting 3 blind mice and police and thief.
ok shiok O lvl nearing and im still slacking.
well thats me.
i think i find my life's quite meaningful.
who cares if anyone is born a mistake.
theres a reason god created you.
there must be a definite talent .
There is .
Where theres fun , theres happiness.
And through happiness , i totally forgot that i was born a mistake.

2006-10-01T07:39:00.000-07:00

title:Month Of Ramadhan.

Month of ramadhan.
A month whereby devils and souls were locked up and torment,
and a month in which brings us closer to Allah.

A month of which to endure through our emotions
and carrying out our prayers,
to see no evil.
to hear no evil.
to speak no evil.

It really is an enduring month.
To forget depressing and sorrow memories.
To endure my anger
To avoid miscommuninication.

I was landed another heartbroken news shortly after my cursed fall.
I was deeply depressed after the news.
And now.
My beloved uncle passed away on the holy month of Ramadhan.
Another piercing heartbreaking news that shattered my life to pieces.
Nearly.

He was diagnosed to have a weak heart and liver problems.
And was sent to hospital ICU for observation cause his life is at risk.
When i visited him, it really shatters my heart to see those many needles piercing through
his arm and wrist.
His foot swollen.
His voice low and soft.
The last advice i heard of him was to stop smoking.
I didnt eventually know how he got that news.
I was very touched and depressed to see his dying state.

Today,
Hes gone.
Peacefully in the month of Ramadhan.
I was brought down to tears and sorrow.
All i can do is to pray for his safety path to syurga.
I will miss him dearly.
For his absence in future Hari Raya.
It aint gonna be a normal Hari Raya which i use to celebrate.

Its such a painful month.
With so many things happening around me.
Its so hard for me to continue life but i must.
Knowing one that is closer to me is gone,
its so depressing.

My health is deteriorating.
Im having fever , excruaciating headaches and a heartache.
How i live
Will depend on my faith.

Do feel the same when your love ones is gone.
I will be there praying for your love ones a safety path.

Wak Jen,
i will miss you so much.

2006-09-27T09:14:00.000-07:00

Title: Clot

okay finally i went to the doctor cause i cant bear the pain in my head.
its a real extreme headache ive ever suffered since i had a cursed fall on ginza staircase
about 2 weeks ago.

it wasnt nice to hear of the result after the x-ray.

theres a blood clot on my left side of the brain.
the swollen part had blocked the flow of blood
and it dried. so theres little blood flowing through
the swollen area.

...

it was rather shocking.i was stunned by the news.
i thought it was another normal headache ...

i might / might not recover as told by dr.lee
even if a surgery is done,
the risk is high.

ive talked to my parents.
no surgery no anything done inside me.
just let me be what i am and let fate play its part.

it all depends on time.
who knows i migh recover
who knows if it really is blocked then i might be a vegetable
or eventually forgot everything everyone i ever knew or even
i might be a real retard..
touch wood.okay no joke.im dead serious.

maybe only

perhaps its a punishment for all the sins ive made.

i don't wanna forget all my friends and even my family members.

oh well,since it already happened .

i might as well cherish the present and future

for who knows tomorrow i might forget it all.

who says i always look on my life negatively?

deep inside, im always positive .

i just cant bear it thats all .

im just weak .

i may look normal but my head is killing me.

all i can do is to bring a smile (:

To those who concern about my being,

im really grateful to have frens like you.

Pray for shall i will be back healthy and strong again

Thats the wish i will make for my belated birthday.

Coz i nvr believe in wishes.

Thank you my pals.

Ariel

2006-09-25T08:59:00.000-07:00

Title:Ok.Abandon railway.Its really scary.

Ok tis is way long and its during my prelims.I got this photos after messing around wif my pixs so i thought of publishing it on my lousy post.

This is around 11 am after my prelims exams. Its the last of the paper and we thought of having fun.So we went adventuring lor nahbei. So in my school uniform and my neat look go adventuring?wtf i must be insane .Oh well so what at least they are clothes to cover myself from being bare.haha!arse!fark!

so here it is.
credits thx to zan and amsyar.

Ok im trying to act so call cool but deep inside i fear of heights lor.
i was trembling like shit looking below cause its a deep river.
I bet if i bring you there you will be wetting your pants!

ok stress wadever. the scorching heat i guess.

pray for shall the train would not come.

crossing to the other side.

i dunnoe but im going home all the way to teban.

ok wadever. i had a serious fun time wif them . perhaps we would venture allthe way to peninsular malaysia? ok fuck it im tired .

till then.

2006-09-17T09:06:00.000-07:00

Title:Another Sunday

woke up at 4pm sharp
brush teeth and bath and switch on computer.
Meddling wif some myspace and other stuffs.
Check here and there.
Oh well
BORING.
switch off.

It was raining cats and dogs outside.
I could feel the cold gush of wind fucking through my window.
I was freezing till phone rang.
It was Jimmy.
Asked me to get my ass down to 711

Eventually i met them.4 persons.
2 went home.
Met Alip at Ginza
Then head to pool.
I won him.
He felt devastated and unhappy.
Too bad he wasnt patient and calm.
I was.

Home.